This is not good. I'm not doing anything past 3 days. I have some excuses will allow me to decrease my level of guiltiness which is;

1) I have just recovered from sick

2) I'm still not feeling well

3)The weather is too hot. -.-'

4)my stomach doesn't feel good

5)i'm craving for subway. I'm thinkin about it all day long thus im not able to do anything.

6) Honestly,i'm still sick

I think both of my lecturers are getting more lame. Ha! Typical Singaporean. Even the way both of them talk are the same. I suppose part of the reason why my english is getting bad is because of them. 
I'M THE QUEEN OF EXCUSES.

Yesterday, the bf was busy. We're going fine.The thing is ,I think we both should really do is to do more crazy stuff togather. In fact, we have this plan to wear and act like a beggar. 
So he called and ask:
he: what did you had for dinner? I'm sorry to call late. Busy.
me: Jap food with my cousins n aunties
he: Great.

I called the bf this evening and he was having lunch with one of his friend:
me: where are you?
he: havin jap food with ah-meng
me: Ha! kia-su. that time i go eat Thai food ,the next day u went to eat shark fin. 
he:so what's for lunch?
me: porridge..............

I so wanna:
-to shop for heels and bags.
-register for fitness well 
-Subway and BK
-Genting with him
-desperatly finish my coursework!!! 
-club. ( it's been ages )
-that wan
-sentosa again

So basically, want and action is two diverse thing. I always believe action speaks louder than words. So if you guys agree with me, please kindly donate some money to me so I fulfill the things above. I'm so broke,recently.

I'm going back to Malacca on the 16th. Don't date me out. I only have 2 days 1 night in malacca. So why the hack I'm saying it here,right? This is because i'm trying to avoid misunderstanding. 
Later don't come up and say straight on my face that " Like that lah! Come back never tell. Next time advertise in newspaper."


TIme to date with Philip Kolter. He'll be my "ai ai" (luv luv) till next year June.


p.s: Indirectly i'm the scapegoat of hers once again.

It's gonna be an emo post, if you feel uncomfortable about it or you are alredy emo-ing,please kindly leave this zone. Thank you.

I just feel weird i'm having such feeling these few days. It is because i'm too sick that it actually burns my brain? Shyt. Craps. I'm missing my Daddy out of sudden. Badly. I miss you.

I used to have this 4 guys who being very protective and pamper me when i'm in secondary school. Thou, they are rather playful but they never fail being there for me whenever i'm having bad days or problems. 
-they come over my house for weeks, comfort and cheer me up when i broke up with my ex.
-they find and talk to this guy when this guy call me up for 20 times per day
-just a call and they will be here to fetch me here n there
-we used to play pillow fighting togather

I ruin it. Few years back, i ruined the friendship. Perhaps they can't accept the changes in me. Maybe i didn't allow them to understand what i'm going through. I'm sorry. I really don't mean it. I really don't mean not to let you guys to enter my life like how we use to be.
To one of my bbf;
Happy Birthday. You're the most supportive among them. 
Often you tell me, you're the last thing i should wrong about, but that's not true. You should know what i mean. 
I'm missing the good old times we had.

Yup. I'm finish emo-ing le. Happen to read the email Wei2x just sent and i have decided not to emo le. Sian.Hahas. Oops, i mean thank you.

Last Sunday, I went to Trinity Church with my dajie and her husband. The sermon for last week was very meaningful. It's not that the rest of the previous week wasn't good. 
The title was " Abounding Provision"... 
* GOd is not God who is  just enough but He's a God who is More than enough.*

I always feel happy for him when his cafe is in good business. But recently i feel that he's not spending enough time with him as this week his cafe is in super good business that makes him super busy which makes him spend less time with me. Maybe that's why i'm emo-ing here. What  the hack,right?!!! But yet he still cal
MICH Pang! stop thinking nonsense. 

i'm missing my sugar like nobody business, *Loves*

" Dear Lord, I think i have not been sick for ages. Maybe You should let me sick so that i can have a good long rest?"

I prayed to God this (above),and now I'm really sick. Fever.cough.sorethroat.Asthma. Eyes swollen.

Ok. It's not because of the prayer . Blame myself for sleeping late and had too much durians.
When Rachel found that I'm sick she goes:

"SEE LAH!! EAT MORE DURIANS!! ASK YOU NOT TO EAT SO MUCH!" 

She repeated it for like 6 times yesterday. And thank you shir for accompanying me to the clinic.

Yesterday night, suppose to have dinner with dear's family . In the end, i have to cancel it as i'm having high fever. His mum actually threaten me that if i don't go and consult  doctor any sooner, she will tell Roger about it.  -.-'.
Super whooper hoping he'll be here but that is impossible. Actually it's possible. HAHAHA!!

haiZ. michpang,sleep early. drink lotsa water. I know that gugu is being unhappy as i'm that willful. Sorry. I will change. Really.

All these while i always thought i'm the one who is giving him the pressure, but i come to realise indirectly he's the one who giving me stress. Never mind, i prefer in this way so that i'll do well for my test. I think dear, you should think how you going to grant my that 3 wishes. Haas. God, guide me along. 
Dear is sick too. He's sick one day after me that allows him to:

him: Now you have to believe that i truly loves you.
me: why? 
him: you sounds healthier and i'm sick
me: means?
him: i have taken all your sickness away
me: awww. xin ku ni le ( sorry for the trouble then)
him: you're most welcome.

shyts. Time for medicine. yayness. i can go rest. ya. AGAIN!...


BYES.

I'm back. Sorry for the late update. 

where should i start? 

On the 13rd, ben,shi,bao and I had amazing outing after the church. First,we went to watch Hancock at PS. A big THANK YOU  to ben,shi and bao as this is their second time watching Hancock because of me. Lols. Had lunch at Ajisen. Shi can really eat. I must train,cannot lost to her. hahas.

I fall in love with ben's fragrance ( issey Miyake). Lols!! I'm like holding his sweater most of the time. After that,we went to Taka, House of condom ( ah bao shy to go in!!). After town, it's still early so we plan to go another place but don't know where to go. I start giving idiotics idea. Anyway, we decided to go  SENTOSA  in the end. OF course, i'm the most happiest person among them as i freaking long never been to sentosa.  watched "song of the sea". Believe me, I can watch the show for 1000x,i don't mind. It's beautiful. It amaze me during the whole show. After sentosa, we went to Holland V, Breko's. Chatted, drink, eat and snap pics. 

My next destination: Zoo, Safari night, Bird's Park!!!.. Anyone?

I shall summarize what's happening last week:
-had lunch with ah ben at  JEC, as he's havin check up and i need to go JE library. Oh,thank you for saving me. Haas.
-attended SOP. I love their song. Especially " wo mei ai".
-class as usual
-the student service wants me to attend the fuzion night and make me go on stage!!.. 

Too bad, the fuzion night was on fri and i need to go back to Malacca,i rejected. We leave from sg at 11 plus,on the fri. Reached Ayer Keroh around 2 plus, dropped ah gong at hospital for check up. Continue our journey to KL to get some stuff done. Encounter traffic jam. By the time we reached malacca, it's already 10 pm plus. Uncle Fox and gugu leave to Sg around 12 am plus. 
It was nice talking to yang. He's so charming, humorous, innocent and he'll always be the youngest bro that i'll pamper. Of cz, elder bro as well. 
Dear came over after his work and we went to the beach. =). On Sat, he accompany me most of the time. Went shopping with dear and he bought me "sponge bob". I named it "happy". Thank you. My to-do list with him can say as mission accomplish. Every single thing i've planned we manage to cover all of them. At night, celebrated grandma's birthday at one of the restaurant. The food was awesome. My aunt keep on asking us (dear,yang and i) to finish the food. After cutting the cake, him and I rush back to cafe as there's lot of customer. Well, i saw a person i don't wish to see. I'm afraid i will just go in front of him a give him a good nice slap. 
Anyway, as a  good civilian and a christian i have to control myself. Lols.

After work, me and him ** you don't have to know**. Lols.

My bus is at 9am. Dear, came earlier to pick me up to have breakfast. We had Mc donald for breakfast. 
Miss. 

And i'm back to sg now. 


I have to go now else i'm so death.

So call done with my FYP banner. Hopefully,Shi will feedback me asap. Today is just not my day. I don't know to how explain this,but i can feel it. Was stuck in college for 8 hours. I didn't know Dr.Sein's class got examination. It's a open book examination. I freaking hate open book exam,can? It's just so stupid!!! Well, to frame it to a nice picture, is where candidates can bring any books to the examination hall BUT the question are damn chim and hard. By the time you found the answer, it's time to handle up the test paper. 
Stupid,right? Plus, it is an absolutely case study exam. Darn!! @#$%^&*

I called the bf and i told him i got the result. He was like" please,if i got that type of result,my mum will love me til death,okay. So,stop crying. I'll be there,okay. hugs". Actually,the result wasn't that bad it's just not what i expected. I'm disappointed. Really. Anyhow, I must thanks God. Thank you,Lord. I'll work even harder for this term. It's not that i wanna to boast or watever it is, but i really work extremely hard for previous term. Never mind, i won't give up.

Mummy called and ask me to go back on the 17th of july. They are going to celebrate grandma's birthday with aunty&uncle. We are going to have steamboat. Yay!It's been a long time since we celebrate grandma's birthday.
I think "trust" is a very cruel word. Haha. Just be honest, if u were to ask to trust your bf/gf , will you trust them without any doubt? If your answer is yes, guess i'm having mental problem then. =). I really wanted to trust him completely without any further questioning but I'm afraid to be hurt again.

Okay.i gtg now. Hees. Night